The Lord knows me. The Most High God, my Father, really understands me. My God searches my heart and is intimately aware of every plan and thought that goes through my mind (1 Chronicles 28:9). The Lord knows that I love Him (Psalm 91:14).
However, there are times when I forget that I love Him. Sometimes the world creeps in, and my heart gets wrapped up in fear, doubt, pride, frustration, and selfishness. For me, it can be triggered by something as simple as a statement from my wife or my boss that does not make sense in my mind. I must correct her or him. I feel a stifling tension until my perception of truth is on the table. My pride will not let the perceived untruth float in the air. In my flesh, I must squash the perceived untruth. These scenarios often result in misunderstanding, arguments, and hurtful exchanges. Alternatively, many friends of mine internalize this kind of tension and let it build up. It can be overwhelming.
Why is the tension so prevalent? My God provides for my every need, cares for me, and protects me (Psalm 91:3-12). Yet, I can easily fall into trusting in myself, my bank account, my comfort zone, faith practices, or knowledge. I want to trust in my Father like Christ does. Jesus is a perfect Son. I feel like a mess as a son. Jesus is steady. I am up and down.
But in all this, He still calls me a son. Despite my flaws and doubts, He knows that I love Him (Psalm 91:14). The Most High God knows that I acknowledge His name. He hears my prayers and answers them. He is with me and rescues me again and again. My God honors me and gives me life (Psalm 91:15-16). Because my God knows me, I can say that He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust (Psalm 91:2).
I can move forward even when fear, doubt, pride, frustration, and selfishness creep in. I can live by faith in the Son of God, who loves me and gave Himself for me (Galatians 2:20).
Christ City Church, as you pray today, be reminded of the surety that the Most High knows us, is with us, and will protect us.
-- Ryan Kernes